Useless Preparation

I didn’t think I’d suffer

When you turned away

I’d been bracing for it

Since the day that your touch changed

My skin threw up the flag of red

When it felt you hesitate

The pressure of your touch

Was different on that day

It meant the end was coming

I could see that clearly

So I began the process

Of unplugging my worn heart

Extracting all the things

That I put into us

I rebuilt the walls

That you had broken through

Bricked up the open doorways

Your love hammered into them

I felt secure and safe

Inside my fortress

Until that final day

I felt the ground quake

The reckoning of ending

Rattled my whole heart

Much more than I anticipated

I thought you made me stronger

But without you now

I’m weak