Dust and Ashes

I think that I’m disintegrating

Crumbling into ashes

Can’t seem to find a reason

To pull myself back up

From the dust on the floor

Where this time I feel

If I can’t beat it

I should join it

Sink down into the particles

Let them absorb the last of me

Then wait for someone else to come

To sweep me up

And toss me out the door

Where I will let the wind take me

Scatter what remains from shore to shore

Dispersing all the memories

The thoughts and feelings too

The ones that haunted me

For all the years I had

All the time I tried

To be better

To be loved

All of it for nothing

Ash to ash

And dust to dust