December 28th, 2015

Dear J,

I can't be around you right now. I can't handle it. I just keep hearing the words that we both threw at each other last night and I can't stand to sit here and make small talk with everyone else like they weren’t all there, while those not so distant shouts echo in my mind. I can't be around you today, and tomorrow might be too difficult as well.

I don't know if it will ever actually get better. I don't know if you will come to your senses in any way. I know that I won't budge on my position, and maybe that's the wrong thing to do, but based on everything I’ve seen these past few months, I don't think it is. Everyone else in your life seems to be catering to you and I simply can't be that person.

Maybe one day things will change and we can move on. Or maybe we can't. I know that if things continue along their current trajectory I won't be open to you. I won't be able to put the energy forth that will be required to mend this.

I don't know if any of my choices are the right ones or what may come in the future. All I know is that for today, I simply can't be around you. And if you truly remain this stubborn and intractable there’s no chance you’ll meet me halfway.

K