Any Other Tuesday

On any other Tuesday

I’d have said goodbye to you

Still in the bed

As I went

Dashing out the door

On any other week

As the sun began to set

We’d leave things behind

And spend time just us two

Any other month I’d be stressing

About the coming bills

You’d be calming me

So in control of things

But it isn’t any other Tuesday

After what happened Monday

Now I’m the one in the bed

And you’re the one who left

My eyes are red

Can’t bring myself to

Face the world today

To bear the harsh reality

I wish it were

Any other Tuesday

I turned off my phone

I’m sick of dealing with the news

Friends and family checking in

Handing me the grief

That should stay with them

I can’t take it

When my own overflows my arms

If you were here

You’d understand

And help take some of the load

But you aren’t here this Tuesday

After the disaster Monday

Now I’m the one who has to deal

With every little thing

Without the support of you

Can’t bring myself to

Face the world today

To bear the harsh reality

I wish it were

Any other Tuesday

I can’t think of Wednesday

I’m too busy with this breath

The inhalation labored with

The dark hole in my chest

The wishes that we were reversed

Only stopped by thoughts

That maybe I’m just cursed

Flavored with the knowledge that

I never deserved someone like you

How will I get to Tuesday

After this damned Monday

How can I make it on my own

After calling you my home

My eyes are red

I feel the hollow in the bed

I can’t bear the world today

I want to avoid reality

And go back to

Any other Tuesday