Bloodletting

If I could drain the jealousy

From my body

From my mind

I’d let it flow onto the ground

To salt the earth below

Poisoning the soil

Rather than my heart

I would do it if I could

But I don’t know how

If I pull out my big toe

Is that where I’ll find the drain

To siphon out the toxin

A bloodletting of my soul

If I go upside down

Suspended from my ankles

Will the venom that I feel

Flow out of my eyes

Just tell me how

To expel these cursed thoughts

They are slowly killing me

Bring me leeches

Needles

Something

To extract the pain

The love you give’s

Not worth all this

If I cannot learn control

Control and trust

Two things that define me

One in the struggle

To maintain it

The other in its lack