Trying
I don’t know how
To accept any love from you
I can’t absorb it now
However much I want to
But I am lost without it here
Unsure of what to do
With the sense of me
And the touch of you
Drunk on all the prospects
I knew I shouldn’t face
I reach out to touch your face
Believing in the smile
Hoping against hope
That this time
This time
Might be one
That doesn’t just undo me
Like so many times before
Hoping in spite
Of evidence and history
That this time
Truly this time
I will allow myself the grace
To let down the walls
And find a simple, solid way
To accept the love you give
I am trying hard to reach a place
Where I can believe that
Knowing it could disappear
Accepting that potential danger
As what makes the giving
The choosing of me
By you
Every single day
So special
I don’t know how
So I’ll bungle through
Being loved by you