Letters to You

I have been doing a lot of thinking lately and I have come to a decision. I can’t be near you right now. I have to go away for a while and think. This has all gotten so intense and confusing. I hope you understand that I don’t necessarily want to end things. I am not leaving you in that sense. I have never felt the way I feel about you

You really should stop texting or checking your email, or playing candy crush, or whatever the hell you’re doing. You know, since you’re on the highway going sixty miles and hour, surrounded by other cars with…

It might be weird to write to you, especially about him, especially after one quick little meeting where we barely even caught each other’s names. I promise it isn’t some sort of treatise about how jealous I am and how much I hate the two of you or a list of reasons he’s awful and why we broke up. It’s very much the

This is such an odd situation. I can’t stop thinking about him. I can’t stop thinking about how hurt he’ll be if we act on what we’ve been talking about. It will devastate him. I never thought I would find myself in this position. I’ve been cheated on before and I always told myself that I would never do that to somebody else,

Well now I guess you’re “Guy Across the Table.” This seems to be going really well. We’re actually getting along great, which I did not expect. I honestly thought you might turn out to be a jerk or I would say something…

Well you actually aren’t there anymore. You left. But you gave me your number. I didn’t expect that. You gave me your number after the fiasco that occurred a few minutes ago. You said you thought it was cute….

Oh dear God, it wasn’t you. I mean, you are you, but you weren’t who I thought you might be. Oh God, now I can’t stop looking over at you. This is horrifying. I want to leave, but my food hasn’t come. I’ve already paid for…

I know I know you, but I can’t think from where. I would say something but I’m a little terrified that I’m wrong and you just look like someone I know. That has happened to me on multiple occasions, and it’s mortifying…

I don’t want to meet you. I am terrified of what you’ll ask me. What can I possibly say to make you not hate me? How am I supposed to explain to you why I gave you up? At the end of the day, I knew from the…

I want to meet you. I never really wanted to give you up, but I had no choice. I want to know what you look like. I often wonder if you look like him or me. I hope you look like him. He was gorgeous. I loved him so much. We…

Dear Next Door Enemy, I know that you are the one who has been stealing my newspapers. I need this to stop. I pay a decent amount of money for this dying form of media communication because I like to start my day with something tactile. I…

Dear R, I was alright. I was fine. I was alone but I had come to accept that. I was perfect in my loneliness. Then you came along and you were everything. You made me fall in love with you. Your gravity was so strong that you just pulled me in. You made me happy, far more happy than I thought I could ever be. I hated you a…

Dear KJ, Today you are in the seventh grade, and someone will call you a faggot for the first time. Like you always do when someone insults you, you will say "thank you," to try to disarm your assailant. But this time you won't know what that word means. A friend will look at you, horrified, and explain it to you. And you will be…

I can't be around you anymore. I just can't handle it. I said what I needed to, and so did you. It's a shame that those things didn't match. If they had, maybe things would be different. But since they went the way they did I…

Dear Car Ahead of Me, I need you to drive the speed limit. I would honestly like to go a little faster, but I’d settle for the limit. This twenty under on a highway bullshit is unacceptable. Unless you can’t read numbers you can’t claim ignorance because we passed several signs on which the limits was posted. If that is the case and you can’t read…

Dear K, This is one of the most difficult things I have ever had to write. Maybe I should talk to you directly, but I feel like I’ll express myself better if I write it all out. Then we can discuss it, because it will require a discussion. I want to start out by saying how much I love you. I care about you more than I thought I could for another…

I got your letter the other day. I want you to know that I think about you quite often too. I also thought you should know that trip stands out as one of the happiest of my life. I lost myself on those beaches with…

Dear P, When I saw your name on the letter I almost threw it away. I couldn’t even begin to imagine why you would be writing, but my brain immediately spun off into a thousand different what’s you could be writing. I thought about the possibility of you writing an apology for leaving me, or maybe you were writing to ask for…

Dear B, You came up in a conversation the other day. It hasn’t happened in a long time, but I needed to talk about you and I realized that I still have a hard time finding a way to describe what we were. I want a word, a name to give the beast. I just don’t know what to call you. Your status alternates between “ex” and “this guy I had a…

I’m not really sure who I am without you. I know who I was before I met you, but you changed things. Now that I have to live on my own again, I don’t know what to do. I don’t know who to talk to about things. I don’t know who will keep my crazy in check. I don’t really remember how I functioned before you. I was strong…